dunno how many hours i've slept
and i still wanna sleep more
revision incomplete
stories, exercises and response papers undone
kanbun not looked at since monday

i keep reminding myself that i'm an exchange student and should be having fun instead of worrying so much about school work
yet, i'm not doing anything constructive

what am i doing to do next sem and next year

being a pile of emo shit now
bai

HAHAHAHA.
and it's Bvlgari

I'm not a morning person.
I've tried, on two separate days in a week, to wake up earlier in the morning to do homework, write essay or whatever, and both occasions, they failed. Miserably.
I can't remember the first one, but the second one just happened yesterday. I tried to start on my anthropology essay on Thursday night but was so friggin' tired because you know, a typical Thursday and the marathon classes killed me so I decided I was gonna wake up at 3am to rush everything out. And yes you guess it, I heard the alarm, turned it off and decided to snooze for another 15 minutes or not. The next thing I knew, sunlight was already streaming in through the curtains and I was like, fuck. Got up to check the clock and it was already 7.15am. Brilliant, because I had a 11am class too, and I hadn't showered the previous night. Yes I know, smelly and unhygyienic, but I was counting on that morning and everything went out of plan. So I quickly sat down without washing up or anything and started typing away. Typed and typed. Planned to shower and get ready for school but thought like, fuck it, I could sacrifice one class to write an essay worth...how much was it worth again? Can't remember but since it was a final research paper, I'm sure it's worth alot. Regardless, I just typed and thought like, I needed 10 pages, double-spaced so that meant I needed only around 5. And fuck it, as usual for the past several years in my scholastic life, I overshot and typed nearly 10 pages without any spacing, including bibliography. I'd never learn, and come to think of it, I'm not sure whether it even answered the topic. I was just happy to finish it. Then went to the school lab (fuck that's why I wished I had a printer here and uni was only 5 minutes away; miss Melbourne in that aspect argh) and edited the essay, printed it out and went for class. Submitted it and didn't want to bother listening in class anymore. Glad the teacher ended early and I was sooo relaxed. For that night.

Doing the Japanese report now. On television and culture in Japan. In Japanese language. Not so bad because I don't have to think too deep about what I'm writing. Intermediate level, I'm sure my teacher(s) don't expect deep or cheem stuff from us. And it's only 2 friggin' pages! Albeit the absence of double-space but c'mon!

Almost done with it and submission is on Monday. Have to go to school to print it again. Yay. And revision sheets to do for Monday's class, editing the story for Creative Writing and fortunately or not, I already wrote an answer on the whiteboard on Thursday's kanbun class so that dramatically decreases the chances of having to write it again on Monday. Need to revise all the kanji for Tuesday's examination and then revising grammar and vocabulary for Thursday's examination. I want to get an A for Japanese damnit. The rest, I just wanna pass now. Kanbun the following Monday and the writing folio on Tuesday. Need to churn out a bunch of writing exercises and nonsense fragments, editing of the two other stories and I'd be done for that. Please Bob, don't fail me ):

And it'd time for the HKD trip and then the time for my dorm buddies to return home ):

I'm really glad though. Reflecting on this whole semester being in Japan, I do feel like my mindset has changed alot, and I've learned plenty of new things. I haven't seen my family since September, and I think it has been the longest ever, since my parents have visited Melbourne and my brother was there. Times have changed. My father is busier with work than ever, my brother has already embarked on his work journey and my mother, well, has learned to be more tech-savvy I suppose, which is a good thing in most ways.

Some things are just overrated, and you just need to learn to let go sometimes.

'kay back to finishing my report.
bai.

The last day of the year before winter break and another 3 or so weeks of school before finals and finally back to Singapore for Chinese New Year.

It's so easy to just map out a path but difficult is an understatement to outline the actual carrying out.

So I've decided to stay on in Japan and relieve myself from thinking about the path not taken every night before I sleep. I do think that it caused me to get sick last week meh. I'd just think about the pros and forget the cons, and forget the pros if I return to Melbourne.

Okay I LOVE JAPAN! :D
forget the stress from taking the train
enjoy the journey and the convenience!

forget the shitty classes
enjoy not doing homework/readings and slack!

forget the arghwtfbbqilumcqrip journeys back and forth
enjoy walking and exercising! (and the weather too sheesh)

there are so many things i've done here, and so many i've yet to do
and so little time

so many places to go, so many things to eat, so many attractions to see

and i need to clean my room ):
pronto

another rainy Wednesday

Mid-November is about to approach. And I'd actually have been here for a full two months already. And how could it seem that anything has changed? But everything has.

Going to Mount Takao this weekend hopefully. Not Nikko anymore. 紅葉！

The Japanese love their eggs.
Eggs in bread, eggs in pasta, eggs in dessert, eggs in drinks (lol), eggs in salads, eggs in everything!
I'm not going to complain though, 'cause I love eggs. Less reason to buy eggs to boil or scramble. Reminds me of the big-ass eggs in Aussie ):

Gezzel! I have more pictures of YamaPi but I haven't got around to uploading them yet. He's going to release a new single (or album?) next week right? :D

Speaking of which, someone has taken the key for Bicycle 92 and has yet to return it since last week. Okay this is frustrating everyone in the dorm except for those who own their own bikes because all the other keys for the other bicycles have been taken away by the manager. Can't travel far unless one is willing to walk the distance. I mean, even if you have misplaced the key, or lost the lock or whatever, just own up man. Unless you have lost the bike (I never actually went to check). Get a new lock, it's not expensive. And everything will go back to normal. Sometimes, I get a nagging feeling that the key has always been in my pocket but I have checked all my jeans and jackets and it doesn't exist there. Then again, I don't even remember borrowing 92 before either. I should just get my own damn bicycle lah wtf. But after I leave, what am I gonna do with it? Donate? No way. -selfish-

Travelling.
It's fun, and there are so many places I have yet to visit. March would be a great time 'cause it's the holidays, the weather would definitely be cool and I'd er, be by myself? What a loner.
Sure the train system here is efficient, but train delays are inevitable. And when that happens and you're stranded with no other alternative route, you can be excused from class! I think. Or at least, if the delays last THAT long. But normally, it's a valid excuse if it causes you to be late for class. That hasn't happened to me. Yet. Hopefully. I leave my dorm earlier than most for my 11am class and during the last train delay, I took an hour and a half to get to school. Thought of moving out, but what a hassle.

Let me list some of the pros and cons.

STAY
(Pros)
1. Can leave everything as it is
2. Can go travelling without worrying where to go back to (lol)
3. No need to clean toilet/shower (yes they are separate) and buy toilet paper
4. Got people around

(Cons)
1. Very far, too far from campus
2. Don't like to share toilet/shower
3. Don't want to go all the way down and up for kitchen
4. Got people around

MOVE
(Pros)
1. Nearer to campus
2. Can have own privacy
3. Can invite friends over to stay
4. Less people around

(Cons)
1. Have to move everything
2. Have to change addresses for bank, cell phone, school etc.
3. Have to pay more bills
4. Less people around

There you have it.
And most of the time it always depends on my mood.
On certain mornings when I have to wake up earlier to go to school to print homework or revise, I grumble at the fact that I have to travel so far.
Then later I consider, and realize moving is gonna be a pain 'cause of the moving (I have more shit than since I first arrived) and all the address changing is gonna be a bigger hassle. I want to have a good Spring break too.
And after all, it's only gonna be four months (at that time).
Now it's still November. Or should I say, already November.
Gosh I am such a confused person.

Can't wait for the next break! Even one day would be great.

I was reading a fellow exchange Sophian's blog when I remembered I had one too. I just blogged the weekend before the Disney weekend, and that was last weekend. So I haven't blogged for nearly 2 weeks already. Cheers.

Those who have been following my photo updates on facebook wouldn't have to read all these to find out what I've been up to. But then again, there are certain things which can't be portrayed through pictures.

Like waking up at 6 for two consecutive mornings and sacrificing lunch breaks to start and finish two separate essays. The Disney weekend seriously burned all of us, considering it took us at least an hour to travel to the train station, and another hour back. The Disney resort one I mean. Of course it was my own fault that I didn't bother to get them done beforehand, and I already knew that weekend wouldn't involve any work done.

The same situation next week.
Supposedly a trip to Nikko next weekend, and I have mid-terms the following week. 3 in fact; one Kanbun and two Japanese. To go, or not to go?

Already going for some soccer tournament this Saturday. Asian Cup finals or something, between Korea and Saudi Arabia. None of the other girls were interested though ):

And we bought tickets to see Joe Hisaishi's concert next January! (: my friends all said his name in Chinese though, so I didn't have any idea who he was until Yifen told me he composed for the animated films.

Sometimes, I think I regret taking this subject combination. Maybe I should have taken Intensive Japanese and all I would need to focus on was Japanese and Japanese alone. After all, that was what I mainly came here for, right?

Kanbun is a pain in the ass.
My teacher is nice, but I can't really follow the class. She talks to the whiteboard and only the first row can hear (the serious students go so early and 'chop' the first row so I can't sit there). When I ask questions, I have no fooking clue what she tries to tell me. Zero. Zilch. I stayed for 15 minutes after class once to tell her that I can't catch up in class. All she told me was to practise. That's helpful. Really. And she says 'Yes I know what you're talking about." No you don't. And the students sitting the last two rows cannot shut the fuck up. There are probably about 6-7 exchange students in the class of roughly 30, and I have the noobest level of Japanese. The Caucasian guy sitting in front of me used to ask Stanley how to say shut up in Chinese. Because the Japanese students would understand it in English. Then again, they might, in Chinese too. Whatever.

So all I can do now is to do what I can do myself. And get this class over and done with. Spending nearly 6000yen on those dictionaries was pointless. I cross out each day on the schedule when the class ends. Looking forward to more crosses.

Creative Writing is fine. But the lame thing is that I could (or actually did) do that sort of subject back in Melbourne, so why bother doing it here? But what's done is done. Another subject to get through, done and over with.

Anthropology is quite fun. Readings. Only the exchange students pretty much contributed to the discussions. Next presentation coming up soon.

Japanese. Nothing much to say. Last subject to complete my Diploma in Modern Languages. So I better do well in this. 90 is considered an A, and I don't know how they are taking down our marks.

Can't skip class here unlike in Melbourne.

That's pretty much it I guess.

Sure that Singapore prides itself on being a fast-paced society; constantly on the move with minimal time to rest or think unless you are able to think while moving and/or regard rest as motion.

Planning ahead is, of course, of stupendous importance.
Going for a Halloween party on the 31st and have a test on the 2nd of November?
Study and revise all your work before getting swallowed in alcohol, candy and screams.
Want to return to your home country four months later but you only have a single entry permit?
Apply for a re-entry permit. Pronto. Even it's four months ahead, because you'd never know how long these administration people can take, not to mention all the additional holidays, public or not, there actually are.
Already gotten a 2-day pass to Disneyland and Disneysea this coming weekend and have an essay due the following Tuesday?
Write your damn essay by this Friday, even if your damn presentation of which your essay is based on is this Friday as well.

Yes only 2 of the 3 apply really.

Oh, finances.
and language barriers.

All part of a lifelong journey, learning and giving at the same time.

i really want to cut my hair into a stylish short style...but at the same time i want to keep it long and longer...
dilemma.
and no, don't suggest a wig.